Nikkij19

I really need to stop being so lazy and procrastinating so much. I'm not getting anything done. I have goals, I have plans, I have ideas, and I hate the routine life. But its so tiresome, coming in day after day to work and sitting at a computer screen all day. and it takes up the majority of my time. When I get home all I want to do is relax, and I dont have much to take photos of at home. I never feel like going anywhere because I am tired and have work in the morning and I have way too many shows to watch. but i love my shows <3  

Anyways, I haven't worked on my novel in some time now. Its so hard writing a book because I never find the time to just sit and write, uninterrupted. and I need an editor and to get copywrited. I really seem to have trouble doing things on my own. Its like I need someone to push me, to make me do what I need to do. and I dont have that person, so I procrastinate and I am lazy, and its killing me. I want to get things done, but I am also afraid that I wont succeed. That people wont like my work, and wont buy it.  I wish I could just guarantee that I will make more than what I put in to it. but that is a risk we all take when selling our art, our writing.  We are putting ourselves out there and there's always a bad critic.

I wish I could just quit my job and pursue a career in photography/writing, but I have bills to pay, and what if it doesnt work out? I know I should go back to school, take some photography and writing classes but again with that laziness and procrastination, oh and also because I dont have the money. Things would be so much easier if i had more money...Why couldnt I have been born in a rich family?? lol or at least someone with connections to book publishers.

What I really need is to stop procrastinating and being so lazy...

Anyways I was introduced to a new band today, Porcupine Trees. I really like a lot of their music especially the album Deadwing. Also, I wrote an awesome poem today,  hubpages.com/hub/Lets-Sleep-To… to that link if you want to read it or any of my other poetry on hubpages.com one of the band's songs is posted on there with my poem.

Also feel free to add me on facebook. Email address is njordan@gogwg.com Just let me know you're from deviantart


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