I really need to stop being so lazy and procrastinating so much. I'm not getting anything done. I have goals, I have plans, I have ideas, and I hate the routine life. But its so tiresome, coming in day after day to work and sitting at a computer screen all day. and it takes up the majority of my time. When I get home all I want to do is relax, and I dont have much to take photos of at home. I never feel like going anywhere because I am tired and have work in the morning and I have way too many shows to watch. but i love my shows <3  

Anyways, I haven't worked on my novel in some time now. Its so hard writing a book because I never find the time to just sit and write, uninterrupted. and I need an editor and to get copywrited. I really seem to have trouble doing things on my own. Its like I need someone to push me, to make me do what I need to do. and I dont have that person, so I procrastinate and I am lazy, and its killing me. I want to get things done, but I am also afraid that I wont succeed. That people wont like my work, and wont buy it.  I wish I could just guarantee that I will make more than what I put in to it. but that is a risk we all take when selling our art, our writing.  We are putting ourselves out there and there's always a bad critic.

I wish I could just quit my job and pursue a career in photography/writing, but I have bills to pay, and what if it doesnt work out? I know I should go back to school, take some photography and writing classes but again with that laziness and procrastination, oh and also because I dont have the money. Things would be so much easier if i had more money...Why couldnt I have been born in a rich family?? lol or at least someone with connections to book publishers.

What I really need is to stop procrastinating and being so lazy...